I had a miscarriage this year , it was the most soul destroying experience of my life. Mentally and physically the worst pain I have ever been through, you feel like something has been taken from you and your kind of just left with an empty space in your heart that no amount of comfort can fill. It was my baby’s due date last Friday and I laid flowers where my babies ashes are, I don’t think the pain will ever go away or get easier it’s just something you learn to live with. I already have a 9 year old daughter and all the experiences I have with her and the bond we have I can’t help but think I will never have those memories with my baby. I was angry at first because I thought why did my baby’s life get taken before he even had a chance to live, the hospital said I lost him because he had a birth defect and my body rejected him because of it, the imagine of him on the screen lifeless in my womb with no heartbeat is an image I will never forget ,how is that fair but then I began telling myself maybe he was to good for earth and god took him as an angel and that’s the thought that has pulled me through on my darkest days. I sympathise with anyone who has to go through this kind of pain , il forever have a small emptiness that will never go away, best thing to do in my experience is take each day as it comes and hope he’s in a better place where he has peace, I still talk to him in hope he knows I love him and he’s still my baby , thoughts go out to anyone going through this tragedy xx